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Watched the Brunei 7s =) but i wasnt around that much. toooooo much of other commitments =)

Didn't have any plans on a Saturday night though.

Last minute chill with Baz and his friends at Coffee Zone. Hangout with the teachers haha

n deeeeeeen...

i crashed at my friend's room di Rizqun =) chilling until like 3-4pm in the morning. and the party starts at midnight haha It wouldve been a sleepless night but durang ada kerja in the morning hehehe

met new friends lagi =)

Ive been learning how to photoshop pictures. its sooo hard eh~ trying to balance everything. In the next picture, was trying to have that warm black and white look. It looks okay. but not that amazing i think =s hmmm.. blajar lagi eh~

On a sunday morning, woke up n balik haha and nooo, i didnt take "the walk of shame~" hahahha just had to go home n take some stuff.

Went to the Brunei 7s competition again.. didnt stay long though

joined a friend of mine in doing a pre-wed photoshoot =)

there's a lot to learn...

yang paling siuk nya, we get to take pictures of the couple at the top of the PGGMB building. Awesome view meh! :)

but it made me thinking. I know the camera was never the limit because the photographer is! but once in a while, you sometimes feel you can do more but youre limited by the capabilities of your camera lenses.

I want the Canon 70-200mm f.2.8 IS =( nada urang sayang arah ku kah? haha

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I know ive been into a lot of sports. this time, im going back to Volleyball hehe last time i played was during form 6th.

Joined the Inter-Faculty Volleyball tourney heheh :D just for fun though :D

Group HUG!!!! :D

It was a fun night lah. we didnt play to win. But just to have fun. Laugh around. Don't really care about points. btw, we celebrated like we won the world cup when actually, we won a set. a SET i tell you!! not a GAME!! over wah!! hahaha

But during the finals, Jai and Wen went. and apparently, we won an award.

Team paling sporting!!! hahaha :D

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soooo yeah. as expected, we didnt have a match with the juniors but with the seniors!! apalaaaaaaaa nasib~ we didnt win but its good to have the experience. I didnt play my usual position. I am a blind-side winger but i was positioned as a flanker! they say i did good for a first time flanker. They say a flanker is the winger of the forwards. oh well, i dunno lah. If my body is as tough as Qadir, probably i would be a nice flanker.

Now i have to train lah lagi

oh btw, after the match, i broke down. so takut urg salah paham especially the coach soooo FYI, its not because of rugby =s

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well sometimes. you'll hear some people would say to you that he's/she's out of your league. haha im not sure if there is such thing... until last night!! :D

a friend told me that he used to have a crush with this girl. not sure masih ada or not! hahaha

nway, this girl is a chinese, long black hair, fair white skin. she's 5'11 and cud easily mistaken as a supermodel =P she's really educated. just graduated from London School of Economics. In the top 5. :D . and she plays football as a goalkeeper =) and she's rich =D hahahaha personality wise im not sure but my friend said she's nice. so there you go! the whole girl package! my friend punya type lah. aku punya lain sikit haha :D

then i looked at my friend and looked at her.

saya hanya mampu terkidum! :D hahahahahha

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which I shouldve known the answer a long time ago

so here it is

" What does a woman really wants? "

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Sorry for the last minute notice but aku kana salah informed hehehe

UBD SHARKS Vs Knights Jr

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I'm at CB. yeay! :D

Apparently there are some regulars here. Wafiy's always here. 'cause he's studying for his exam. Dean is here. Not sure why. Chill kali. hehe

Today's news.. Every friday morning is my cleaning morning :D when im at the hostel, usually i'll do my laundry and clean up the room. sooo since im not living at the hostel anymore, i'll just clean my room n let my aunty wash my laundry muahahahah! 'cause im evil i tell you! eviiiiil!! :D

i like to clean up my room. Change the locations of my bed and tables. make space so i can easily walk in my room :D buuut malam nya samak tia balik haha

One bad part is you could encounter some stuff that reminds you of your memories. Either its good or bad. Well let's just say i had a mix feeling this morning.

I found the frame the Nuar and Amsyar gave me for my birthday =) i shud hang it somewhere. hehe i miss that day. It was Nuar, Bibi and Aryf 3-in-1 birthday party. Had a huge water slide+pool. Nice!! :D

unfortunately, i found stuff given by the ex. Feels like i wanna give it back to them. but it's rude to do so. so all i can do is... buuuuuuurn them all!! muaahahahahhaha!!! :D nada deh.. i'll put them aside saja lah.. just looking at them gave me flashbacks~ weeeelll.. i've regreted everything that had happened.. but what to do? i gotta stop crying over spilled milk =/

so met Boboy, Lim and Ally. talked and talked. Boboy is into boxing. And im kinda interested in trying boxing out. There's a place in berakas that teaches boxing but iiiiii think i shud use the money elsewhere hehe had a Muay Thai trial there but its just not my thing. soooo where can i do boxing courses? youtube!! haha i'll just buy a pair of boxing gloves and huge chunk of meat. Tie the meat to a wall and start punching :D

One part of that conversation, i like what boboy thinks. i'll just keep it in mind =)

Lim said BARA is going to do Parkour real soon! i hope its gonna be this end of year 'cause i'll sure gonna be joining that one! it'll be fun doing something new. jumping here and there =P i'll have to stay fit though. but i don't mind. It's gonna be cooooooooooool!!

There's orienteering also. might wanna join that one. just in case i got lost or something hehe =P

Nway, this one friend said that," Bangas wah hangout sama durang saja" muahahaha :D dats funny man... bangas hantap wang :D so yeah.. make a lot of friends man. go out there! and sell yourself!! haha dat sounded wrong :D

Fortunately, i got lotsa friends =) sooo inda pernah bangas lah klu aku hangout haha hangout with different crowds on different days. life is just that cool =)

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Its thursday afternoon =) well its my private time at CB. aaaaaand no, this is not CB in Miri, for those who knows that place. Its Coffee Bean =) Anyone is invited actually. Those who wants to accompany me. have the heart to accompany me through fire and flames hehe then by all means.. come =)

So i made myself free as much as possible before exam. Usually i'll just bring my books and study. but i don't feel like it today. im still tired of everything. Most of them pasal rugby lah =)

So talking about rugby. Brunei 7's is coming up this weekend and that's something to watch =P Im pretty excited though. Heard theres a small tourney going on and i heard my team is joining.sooo im not sure about that. You guys should come lah!

Since joining rugby last february, its been awesome! Im not boasting but i feel good about myself and the appearence ofcourse. i feel fit =) not match fit but you know what i mean hehe but as sad as it sounds, thats the only place "aku kana rabuti" hahaha just because i could run as fast as i could and side-stepping anyone i want. Currently, one of the few places that i feel good about myself. Sad. I know =P

Nway, had sushi with the friends just now. its fun going out with Zana :D slalu kna nyaya or nginaya oooor antah.. cana kan spell kan tu?? hahaha She's going to KL tomorrow =/ buuuuriiiiing inda membawa!! hahaha tp inda apa lah..siuk jua FBEPS hahaha have fun in KL, Zana!

n i kinda hate si Jayden masa ani. ia ke KL today n transit ke Korea. dont know what he's going there for but i hate that guy hahaha 'cause i soooo wanna go to korea. Im still upset cuz of the competition the other day. remember the photography competition that i joined last month? that i got a certificate for getting third place but the winner and the runner-up got all-expenses-paid trip to Korea! hmph! and i'll say it again, hmph! haha

Before anything, let's keep one thing straight, im not a Korean drama fan but im more to K-pop or korean music. and i'll go to korea for one reason and one reason only and that is to see the Girl's Generation or SNSD. and probably after dat eat some Kim Chi and learn how to dress like korean guys =) hehehe

Urgh!! batah jua softbox ani kan sampai eeeeeh~~~

eeeeeeeerrrm.. its Yean's birthday today =) can't wait for her gig with eP next month. Some friends are playing for the eP jua kan sooooo alang2 lah datang. hahaha. Nampak inda ikhlas

kan support ah hahaha

Of yeaaaa.. its Fifie's birthday today :D she's a bowling mate.. batah udah inda main bowling eh.. Mulah Rai loves playing bowling. her throw was sooo simple and her ball was soooooo slow but most of the time, most of the pins got knocked down =) I miss you, Rai! hope you are in a better place right now. Looking at us while drinking your pokka hehe

Nway, i cant stop dancing man =D everytime i hear the Fire Burning song. damn Miri! hahaha i know some of my mates cant stop thinking about it also hahaha

eh maybe i should i bring my digi cam jalan2 eh everytime i go out with my friends. macam kosong je blog ku ani. asyik2 crita, asyik2 crita~ takde gambaaaa lagi ke? :D

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Recent weeks ive been downloading TV shows. been downloading CSI, CSI: Miami and How I MetYour Mother.

love the CSI series! every episode is a different thing. but i miss Grissom man.. he's the

main reason why i like CSI. As for CSI:Miami, i forgot nama ketuanya ani.. tapi ia ani half

cool and half lame bah hahaha pasal he never talks with his face looking straight at you bah! :D he always turn his to the left or to the right and looks at you and talks to you.. sometimes when has finished talking, then he wears his glasses and walked away.. n then thats when the music

introduction of the tv series comes in! :D cali..

i love How I Met Your Mother! one part of the story made me think again about some old

stuff..

you know sometimes when you are single. not sometimes lah. most of the time, when you go

out to the Mall or something, you'll see couples. when you go to the park, you'll see

couples. when youre hanging out at a cafe, you'll see couples. betambah lagi if the radio

station plays a couples, romantic, lovey-dovey songs... duuui kuuuuuuusss semangat :D

im not saying that i dont like couples. except some hehe. but i hate it when some of these

stuff happens. when you invite somebody, "bah yo, chill karang at 5" n kana reply " i cant

yo cuz im having a date" . WTF. so okay. im a very understanding friend so i can tolerate

the first one. but all the time. every invite being turned down! gila kali.. matie ku niiii

mati kalau cemani selalu.. single friends ku lagi makin kurang~~~ haiyaaaa~

But another thing i hate is when my friend was totally changed by the BF/GF.. lagiiii ku

mental~ but this one that i hate was kinda confusing a bit.. My friend is about to get

engage sometime soon.. so hanging with him is pretty haaard n he's pretty busy with work

jua kan.. and because of his gf, he's getting religious. thats a good thing. but

unfortunately, he's so religious that he condemns everything else. like, he used to have

this group.. they always chill around dari duluuuu hantaaaaap udah.. group ani inda plang buat kacau.. its just that late night hangout begila kinda stuff hehe but recently, ia MIA.

then he doesnt want to join the group anymore.. den kana tanya," so cana tah group ani?" n

ia jawab "abis lah"!! :O ohemgeee bradaaaa.. ohemgeeee

nweh, I miss cakui afternoons man.. went there though with some friends.. miss going there

with the old friends though..hmmm

I miss taking pictures man.. batah jua softbox ani dtg eh hahaha its been a week udah =P

heeeeey.. i just realised my hair is shiny =)

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UBD Sharks VS Knights Jr

Stadium Belapan

Wednesday

28th October 2009

4.00 PM

please come people!

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Ive taken shots of a wedding the other day..

hope you guys like it!

i loike this kind of shots

durang chill di lantai haha wudve made shots of them lying around but the ground was a bit wet due to rain.. so sayang lah~

i was taking pictures of the groom side.. hehe bilik nya hijewwww~ :D i mean tabir nyaa..

and i really like this one =P

Tunjuk2 langit segaaaala~ :D

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To my readers, sorry that blog is full of sorrows. its my emo period time lah di katakan hahaha =P well.. the heart still hurts.. it would be ok but it wont be anytime soon.. but im trying my best to be happy.. in pursuit of happiness =)

Panya ramai that i dont know about follows the blog hehe sooo kesian jua kamu kan that everytime kamu datang ke blog ani and baca the same emo thing.. buring jua haha

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im just tired being emo all the time.

tried to call a couple of friends to join the sunset chilling sessions. one by one bailing me. im not blaming them. they got stuff to do. Friends to go out with. A girl/guy to go date with. My emo friends are not so emo anymore cuz they have somebody already. Calling the old mates wouldve made me very selfish. they just got back from work and i dont want to make them more tired. Calling the brother from another mother, well, wouldn't be possible. He's getting engaged. They're kinda practically married already. I couldnt bring my other brother. He's in UK. Calling my old brothers? well, i feel out of place at the moment.

Ive been thinking what happened to me last june. and i would never forget what had happened. I know its been 4 months ago. Maybe i should forget what had happened. But when you know its your fault, you'll remember it everyday. That's what i have been going through for the past 4 months. Wake up in the morning, look at the time then i'll start thinking. and yes, its the thing i always thought about. and thats my morning routine. Sad. I know. then i'll be thinking about it the whole day especially when im alone and it will only stop when i go to sleep. The emo part of me would say i wanna die right now but the sane part of me would want to go to sleep everytime i think about it and wake up when i got something else to do. The worst part of me wants to let it all out on everything thats near. "you wont like me if im mad" kinda thing. But i have to keep it inside. I have to.

Im wearing the UBD sharks blue jersey with my blue jeans and my all white North Star superstar shoes! i like how i look right now =)

I miss singapore. i miss going down all the way from orchard road until dhoby ghaut (sp hehe).

Guess what? i just bought a softbox. A softbox is the one macaaaaaaaaaam when you take pictures for your passport, you know the big white box on your left and right and when they take pictures of you, it'll light up. it makes the lighting on the subject a bit softer. hence, awesome portrait pictures!

This saturday, i'll be buying the light stand from a friend. It acts like a tripod for the softbox.

I bought a 5in1 reflector. i dont know how to explain this one but it reflects lights from the sun or flashes. one of the reflector is in gold colour. when you reflect light from it onto your subject, the subject will have a warm tone. something like dat =)

hmmmmmm

I have to invest some money into my photography hobby. melayang duit eh~ but it's for a good thing.

Right now, photography and rugby makes me happy. Running aint so much anymore cuz i practically got no time for it at the moment.

Its kinda like a self-satisfaction thing.

In photography, i really like it when i take awesome pictures. I even kena puji with some of my works. and i love doing portraitures.

In rugby, well, this sounds a bit kambang plang but when i am all geared up, with my west coast australian football shirt and my F30 boots, i feel like i am the fastest on the field. However i am not. but as C.Ronaldo said, if you cant outrun them, side-step them! hahaha and thats just what i did. if you see me on the field, i'll run as fast as i can. but when someone catches up with me, i'll side-step them! how i love doing that!

nway, everytime i hear the Fire Burning song. i cant control myself =P

Kamu ada 30000 pounds? kan pindah skulah ku eh~

I started playing guitar again. Just to keep me busy.

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Just got back

im still tired from the miri trip =/

Miri was awesome man! I was only holiday mood! i mean when im there, i dont have to think about anything. i just have to think about me excluding my rugby mates and the tournament but you know what i mean. =) . It felt like i don't have any responsibilities and i don't have to think about anything else other than enjoying the moment. that's it! enjoying the moment! i truely were!

Wake up in the morning. Play rugby. Got home. Rest. Shopping. Chill outside.

Enjoying the moment indeed.

But when im back in Brunei, i got lotsa stuff to think about. Life. School. Health. Family. Friends. My students. Responsibilities!

i guess it's back to reality.

You know the saying that don't judge a book by its cover. Well, i dont know if it applies here but now i know the other side of people. soooo saya hanya mampu terkidum =)

somebody told me that you can truely know someone when you start living with them. Living for three nights with them is more than enough.You know who your friends are. And at the end of the day, nothing changed except we got closer. I like that.

Miri was an experience.

so if you wanna know about the other side of a person, bring them to Miri! but don't forget, BAWA AKUUUUU!!! :D

soooooooooooooooo the summary of my trip:

Imperial hotel

Shopping at Imperial and parkson

Rugby Matches

Breakfast, lunch and dinner at KFC

McD's lunch promotion. Tried the big and tasty. Nanti lah try the quarter pounder.

Cherry Berries =) i know you all remembered Charmaine.

New photography friends.

New shoes!

Late night chills.

Late night karoake sessions.

Archery bradaaaaaaa~~ siuk archery ani hahaha tukar sport ku eh! :D

Chill at Starbucks. How i miss that place.

I didn't take a lot of pictures. manakan! di miri kali ah. takut ku jalan malam2 bawa camera ku atu haha shouldve brought my digi cam.

but there are some pictures of me from my friends in my FB, so check lah saja sana.

btw, cool ah! :D

but ada special request for this one to be posted up! :D

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Apparently ada urang suka rambut ku and ada yang inda suka. Haha. I mean siapa yang mau becerita pasal rambut ku ani. I know siapa yang suka. but yang inda suka atu wah =P well currently, i don't really like my hair cuz its layered! its rebonded cuz kusut ku ari atu. tabal rambut ku atu tp inda ku mau gunting. ku rebonding saja. tapi tuuuuuuuuuu tukang gunting ah, di layer nya. sooooo tepaksa tah ku cemani. biar tia saja. apakan daya. Nasib jua ku bali kasut to make me happy! hahaha

Tadi aku ke UBD talent show. Pasal ramai kawan ku perform lah ah. Next year join ku eh. Its either aku main guitar dragon force - through fire and flames or main acoustic laguuuuu apa saja lah. haha n then buat crew menari. either buat bboy crew atau buat stepping crew. hahaha. Jauh imagination ku masa ani.

oh btw, kenapaaaaaa aku ani kan? macam aku suka pilih the impossible. Tadi atu aku keliru! aiseh! haha. Lets just say i got 3 choices. The impossible, The 50-50 or the possible. Ku piliiiih jua the impossible. haha. Hancus lah semuaaaaaa!!

Im just tired to do anything lah. Wrong timing maybe. or maybe i got no will to do anything anymore. i feel numb after 4 tries. Numb i tell you, NUUUUMB! :P

sometimes i feel like going back to form 3 and 4, where no one actually likes me other than my friends and books :P and most of the time, i dont give a damn about anything =)

Finally met the model =) sooooo it wont be long until im doing the strobing sessions. bah geng strobers ku, GET READY! =P

I have been checking out ebay for camera stuff. hmmmmm... should i invest more in photography? or do i use it to buy games. =S

But aku tebali baju plang kelmarin hahaha i bought 3 shirts and wordings on them were, " I've lost my teddy. can i hug you instead? ", " Coffee, ME or tea? " and " Unregistered boyfriend" wahahahahaha theres one that said " Very bad! boyfriend of the year!" haha shouldve bought that one also =P its been a long time since i bought a new shirt aaaand fit ke badan. baru tah ada urang menuleh! time ku pakai baju labuh2, nada urang menuleh! mata keranjang! :D hahahaha

Had a CB session with the bestfren and some dude haha and eyan also. However, I do miss CB-ing with the old mates. But i know it wont be the same anymore =/

There's still a few chill sessions to go to. maybe i'll just go for it. Shisha sessions with the KB mates. Open houses! yes there are still open houses!

Oh yea, i forgot to do another Chill Session with Me!! For the past few days, the sunsets were pretty awesome! Blue skies with orange/red/white clouds. its a nice time to chill. To my emo friends, just wait for it =)

Talking about friends, i know its in the middle of the month, but to my working friends, bila luuuuuuuuuuuunch?! lama udah inda sama2!!! :D

Chill with the brother from another mother lagi!!! aiyaaaaaaa!! gotta make up lost time eh!

other than that, i gotta stop procrascinating! :D ders a lot of pictures to upload!

and ramai udah tagih2 ni minta taruh arah FB hahaa n i just love making new friends! tp the next time jumpa durg, minta taaaag lagi gambar durang hahaha :D i try my best laaaah!

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I think we got 2 more games to go. First one is with the Junior Knights. then with the phytons =)

so this is an invite! to those who are reading this, please come this Saturday at UBD Field C around 4 o'clock. its sharks against the junior knights. watch me play hehehe i'll confirm you again with the match.

Postponed to another date!!

Nanti lawan phytons is on the 1 November. blawan di KB i think. so dat one inda payah kamu dtg lah. dtg plang if kamu mau. After the match, ada BBQ sessions with them plang hehe

i'll confirm about it lagi nanti

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i'll be in miri soon enuf

to play at the Curtin 7's tourney

wish me luck bebeh!

i'll update as soon as possible! :D

xoxo

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I love food but i cant seem to eat much nowadays. even during open houses. maybe theres too much stuff in my mind. maybe i should just stop thinking and eat =P

Anyweh, its half good and half bad plang. its good pasal im getting rid of the unnecessary food intake. its bad cuz probably i dont get much nutritions

tournament is next week. i got to have enough nutritions. some protein shakes maybe??

training for the tourney is awesome. but rather painful hehe

I love rugby because of 2 things ; i got to be in the popular's circle and i can date cheerleaders! hahahaha =D nada deh

okeh2.. its because it makes me do what i do best

People say i like to run away from problems. and ofcourse, that is the worst way to handle things =P but for once in my life, im proud to say that i DO run away from problems!!! :D my position is the blind-side winger! and my job is try to score for the team while dodging and side-stepping the oppositions a.k.a. the problems! hahaha

btw, someone told me to usai myself.. n yes im trying, one by one =)

then when im really stressed out di skulah, kusut plang usul ku tapi aku hold saja. tunggu ada game lawan orang on the field. im sorry to say, durang tia jadi mangsaaaaa~~ :D aku dapat langgar urang atu any way i want.. "provided" that ia pigang bula hehe rugby rules lah

btw, aku jumpa urang kelmarin ani, ia balik2 cakap provided! =D

so okeh this person is my old friend.. batah udah inda ku jumpa ia.. so decided to have a high-tea pasal ia ada this curfew *inside joke* hahaha =P tapi seriously, klu makan sama ia ani, banyaaaaaaaaaaaaak syarat2 nya haha baru ku telarah urang cemani ani haha

Nway, if anyone is free this monday

i'll be at the field at 7.15pm

and there's a match between sharks =)

saja2 lah

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